December 17, 2010
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October 07, 2010
July 03, 2010
May 21, 2010
April 22, 2010
Ever since summer has visited Chennai, my so called busy life is tiring me out even more. Even though I spend all day in one or the other a/c classroom, by the end of it all I am tired. Yesterday I think I was sleep by 930... That’s how tired I am. Most of the time, along with physical exhaustion comes mental exhaustion. And that is something I always DREAD. Once the mental exhaustion sets in, it’s a never ending circle. It was a game and exhaustion ALWAYS won!! I know, I went through it last year. Everything makes a difference. Everything goes wrong and I seriously begin to wonder why.
This time however it’s a different tale.
Are things difficult? YES.
Are things going wrong? DEFINITELY.
Am I finding it difficult to cope? YES.
Are things working out the way my silly human SELF want it to (in short, will MY WILL be done)? NO
YET…. Despite this I am FINE.
I think the crucial moment in this so called saga I call is my life is when I realized that I got to stop relying on MY WILL and stop praying for it. There were (and still are) days I feel so broken and so lost and ready to give up and then I realize that these are the days I tried to do it all on my own. Pretty soon the realization that, it’s not MY WILL that should be of concern, but HIS, came into play. Let me just tell you all this. I was someone who had my life planned out when I was a teenager. So you can imagine the shock I was in for. It’s a great ask for a person like me to be told that this is something I don’t have control over. It’s a great ask to be told that “now is not the time “. It’s a great ask to be told to “wait”.
So now what?
I am listening as hard as I can. I am learning to let go and trust. I am praying for help in everything I do. I learning what faith is all about. I am learning to depend. I am learning to believe that things that are going difficult are soon going to get easy. Things that are going wrong, will soon find the right way and more importantly I will cope and be fine. I know, because it’s all part of HIS will.
I believe that there is a rhyme, reason and purpose for this part of my life. I can’t wait to find out what….. And that Ladies and Gentlemen is a whole different blog!!
April 21, 2010
"you're going to be an aunt big sis"
my lil sis
Sure I was prepared
By doing most things right
I stitched a few dresses
And made sure she ate right (I think)
Calmed my brother in laws’ nerves
And deftly avoided “mood “mines
All this happened
The day of Sept 17th,
Threw us for a loop
Nothing went along
As it should
Saw my sis wheeled through
The theater doors
Spent minutes in agony
But knowing there was more
Out came a trolley
And in it covered in blue
Lay the baby girl
Making her debut
Eyes tight shut
Fast fast asleep
Oblivious to the stir
Or drama surrounding her
With a head full of hair
And “ don’t disturb” me glares
Our hearts were won over
Without a moment to spare
Soon she grew
And we all could see
What an amazing person
She was going to be
With smiles reserved
Only for us
And noises that resembled
A small rhinoceros
With a love for ragi
That tastes really gross
She hates carrots
Who hates those???
Her eyes light up when she sees me
While my heart skips a beat
She has special smiles for each of us
I personally think mines really neat!!
Seeing her makes my day
So precious I found her to be
Her spirit and joy I cannot explain
It fills my heart none the same
I thank God each day
For the gift of you
I really love you !!
April 16, 2010
Yesterday, I was at school and was walking towards the loo.
Suddenly I hear my name being called and I turn to find that one of my students is right behind me screaming “Hi! Ms. Thomasssss “. He turns and walks off into the boys’ loo (while waving to me all along ) and I walk into the teachers’ one.
To my luck, as I am leaving the loo, he comes out too.
Seeing me, he goes (quite loudly I might add) “WOW... Same time!!!! “
March 19, 2010
She turns ONE !!!
March 15, 2010
The other day, 2 of my students (P and L) and I were playing “Go- Fish”. We were playing Go-Fish with articulation cards (like most normal people do) that were for the /r/ blends (/br/, /tr/, /fr/, /gr/ etc)
After explaning the rule, we began playing. A few minutes into the game, While L and I were watching, P picks up the “grape “card and puts it into his pile.
Here is the conversation that followed.
L: ‘P, do you have grape.’
P (my really kind, truthful, wanting to win student): ‘NO’
Me: ‘P, you don’t have grape?’
P: ‘No, mis Thomas, I really don’t.’
Me: ‘P, are you sure you don’t have a card that has the picture of a grape? ‘
P: ‘Definitely not Ms. Thomas.’
Me: ‘But I definitely saw you pick up a card that had the picture of a fruit on it. Do you want to maybe double check for me and see what that card is?’
P: ‘Oh! Sure Ms. Thomas’ (and he proceeds to shuffle through the cards).
P:' Oh! Ms. Thomas, I do have a card but it’s that of a banana.'
(Please remember ... we were are playing GO-Fish with sound blend cards)
Me: 'Uhh… Hmm…. What card?'
P: 'Banana Ms. Thomas, Banana'
Me: 'Ok, P but you do realize that the word “Banana “does not have a blend right. Remember “blends” which we are working on.'
P: 'I KNOW …. Ms. Thomas, you are not listening right.. I said “brnana” NOT “banana”… see…”brnana” has a /br/.'