Now don’t get me wrong... I love to write... Just ask anyone… especially those whom I mail … and let me tell you... These letters aren’t short... Noooooo… they r long...And given a chance they would be longer.
You ask me to write a scrap … I am there...With bells on and a pen in my hand ready to go.
You ask me to write something on your behalf... I am there...all set to let those words have their say.
You ask me to write my PhD ……and I go BLANK!!!!
I am not joking …. For the past 4 weeks I have been coming into the University at about 9 in the morning. Even on weekends mind you! and I am here till about 7 in the evening.( I have even given up MASH !!!). A very busy schedule I hear you say…. Darn right you are!!!!
Let me tell you what this busy schedule is made up of. Endless cups of coffee(oh no green tea now a days!!), a little bit of writing here and there and constantly staring at the computer screen in the desperate hope that my PhD will somehow, by some miracle start to write itself!!!! I am still waiting. In the mean time the page I began this morning is still blank while in between contemplating what to write, I have managed to send out 5 letters, write about 5 scraps on Orkut and even write out a new blog!!
So yeah….. What do I do??
I am sure I will be told soon enough by few that its called LAZINESS. True but what IF it’s not that? What IF it’s the work of some unseen force??? WHAT IF???
So to conclude…. No… I am not lazy … it’s an unseen force that’s preventing me from doing my PhD.
Therefore... after taking all matters into consderation , I have decided to soldier on (very bravely) and go find a way to over power that force.
But before that, let me just go very quickly and refill my cup of green tea and I shall be on my way …….eventually !!!!!! :)